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the_trashmouthThere's a part of Richie that's convinced things are going to be weird forever. He hasn't really talked to Eddie much since he found the piece of rail and the carving near the Home, but that's not too much different from how things were before. It's a lot of avoiding Eddie and Jamie in the halls at school, hanging out more with Stan and Bev, studying at Regan's house instead of coming straight home.
He's gotten used to it. But it sucks. He misses his friends and he misses giving Eddie shit. He misses putting on a Voice and getting one right back from Jamie. Their room at the Home is so quiet now, Richie wants to jump out of his fucking skin.
But he knows Eddie probably told Jamie about what happened, and Jamie probably hates him now. Because Richie likes boys the same way he likes girls, he probably thinks Richie wants to be with Eddie, or that he wants to take him away. It's all stupid and Richie hates it.
Today after school, Regan can't hang out until later, so Richie has to go back to the Home to do his homework. But he figures if maybe he steers clear of the bedroom he shares with Jamie, it won't be so weird.
He dashes upstairs to grab his math book, hoping he doesn't run into anyone.
He's gotten used to it. But it sucks. He misses his friends and he misses giving Eddie shit. He misses putting on a Voice and getting one right back from Jamie. Their room at the Home is so quiet now, Richie wants to jump out of his fucking skin.
But he knows Eddie probably told Jamie about what happened, and Jamie probably hates him now. Because Richie likes boys the same way he likes girls, he probably thinks Richie wants to be with Eddie, or that he wants to take him away. It's all stupid and Richie hates it.
Today after school, Regan can't hang out until later, so Richie has to go back to the Home to do his homework. But he figures if maybe he steers clear of the bedroom he shares with Jamie, it won't be so weird.
He dashes upstairs to grab his math book, hoping he doesn't run into anyone.
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Date: 2020-03-09 05:57 pm (UTC)Even as I said the words, they felt absurd. At first, in those early moments when Eddie had told me what happened, I'd been jealous and angry and afraid. But it hadn't taken long to realize just because something was no longer a secret didn't mean everything was going to turn into that reality. A crush was a crush. I had certainly had one before Eddie. It wasn't so strange for Richie to have had one before Regan.